chellebelle

last night my husband brought home mountain dews and blow pops and i love both of those . i was so tempted to just dive in but i kept thinking no you have already put in all of your food for the day and you are in your calorie zone so i just had a quick sip of the mountain dew and didnt even pick up the sucker i was so proud of myself.  he was like dont you want them i brought them home for you. i said no they are not part of my healthy eating and im alraedy in my calorie zone .one small victory for my self esteem one giant sigh of relife for my waiste line. have a great day everyone!!!!!

so here i am  im trying this again ive been off trying  to diet on my own but its not working ive gained like 7 lbs back so like i said im back. so all my buddies mammas bacck.

well its saturday and im trying to get my last workout in before my weigh i tommorrow and my kids are totally making it difficult  my son is destroying the house and my daughter is acting like she is having withdraws from mommy it makes me want to pull my hair out. its like they know mommys trying to exercise lets go crazy. anyway my workout finally got done and i know ive gained some weight the last time i weighed myself i weighed like 245 or243 and that was monday so hopefully maybe a .5 pound loss or so would be great but well see. have a great weekend keep pushing

so for the last 3 weeks to a month i havent   been blogging or eating healthy i have been moving into a new house and i have been pigging out  so now im back and im ready to get started  ive benn working out all week and watching what i eat

the difference now is that i am not going to be tracking my food now before you say thats not a good idea tracking was driving me crazy having to type in all the info and be on there for evey meal and snack i want to try and make  healthy choices  and eat like a regular person. im still watching portions and paying attention to the labels and serving size i just felt like i was tied down to my computer and calculting  my calorie intake i would start to skip snacks and things so i would not go over 1500 calories i would some times stop at 1345 or less . you know i have 2 kids and a new house to take care of and i need something i can start to make a lifestyle so im going to try this and hopefully i can stick to it.

im feeling very uninterested in this diet and exercise thing today.i am pretty much on track except i had 5 fudge stripe cookies. and i have put them in my journal  and thats it that is all im having . i just feel like im over it you know i was so into it and blogging everyday and putting everything in my food journal. now its like i have to force myself to do it.i need some motivation so if any body has some im here.

today started off well enough healthy eating is going fine but im tired today and i only got 20 mins on the eliptical

so i dont know i just want to take a nap. does any one have any energy boosting tips?

okay so today is my weigh inand i went from 244 to 239 which is great im like wooohooo its working .

but the little tracker said that im losing weight to fast . im doing it completely healthy  you know eating fruits and veggies and carbs  and protien  and stayin between 1200 and 1500 calories everyday and im not exercising excessively. 30-45 mins on the eliptical  mon thru sat and the total gym  3 days a week . first of all i dont know how i lost this much weight this week except for maybe the fact i was on my period last week and maybe i was holding an extra pound or two of water . i even had a big brownie sunday friday night  and that snack pack of oreos which i blogged about mon .  i have felt the best ive felt in almost a year and i finally feel like the post partum depression is lifting and now this thing is telling mee im losing weight to fast someone help me.

well everyone its wed and im still on track besides that slip up on monday . i hope everyone else is. does anyone know how many calories a woman is supposed to have to loose weight but not deprive your body of essential nutrients . i emailed the doctor about it but i have not gotten an answer back.  if anyone knows please let me know

okay so tonight those old feelings came back and i was alone and i gave in . i ate 12 oreos  and a glass of milk and right after i got done i cried and i feel like im just not strong enough to do this . being fat is comfortable to me i mean i dont like my at self but this has been me for ever . so trying to be healthy is different i feel like im sabatoging  myself .i just have all the tools i just feel like i cant  like im not strong enough. but im gonna get right back on track tommorrow.

so yesterday  we all went to the park but of course we had to go to the deli to get lunch so my husband got an 8 piece fried chicken with 2lbs of potato wedges and potato salad for every one . you dont know how bad i wanted to eat that but i knew i wouldn t be able to eat it sensibly so i got one of those southbeach diet lunches that only has 220 calories in it and a small bag of sun chips . then the icecream man came by and i totally resisted even when my 2 year old had am ice cream sandwhich.

but those old feelings came back about 9 last night and i wanted some crackers or cookies so bad and my husband actually said i could but you know what i resisted and went to sleep i am soooooooooooo proud of myself i hope everyone had the same great sunday