chellebelle

so i posted before that i had some lab work done and my cholesterole was through the roof  well i went to my kidney specialist and he tested me and of course told me to fast for the 12 hours before the test which i had not been told before he called me today and said my cholesterol was normal and that the other test had been inaccurate. i was so happy the doctor also told me to loose wieght and to not take it personal that he cared about me and i needed to loose the weight but i already knew that so i am going to eat as if i do have high ccholesterole and exercise that way too. so today was a good day on the health front.

so im thinking of taking this week off from the diet and exercise. ive just been stressed out thinking about all the food i need to void and doing the workouts im just thinking about starting with renewed vigor on dec 1. and setting a goal of being at my goal weight by next dec 1 . my heart just doesnt feel into right now i was working out last week and was still cheating so im having an issue of motivation right now if anyone has any thoughts on this please let me know.

so i went for a routine blood draw for the life insurance company that i am trying to get ife insurance with . i got my results back and everthing was fine except my cholesterol. my trygliserides are high  and my good cholesterol is low and im just like what the hell . if any of you have ever read my profile im 22 and i didnot think i would have to worry about that for a while. and i know from reading on the internet that the trglycerides ard high because of my weight . i started back after three weeks of just not doing anything after my sisters wedding and it was nice to let myself relax and mondy i got back on it with my husband because i was starting to get flabbier now i feel like i have to do it to save my life. im in between being extra motivated to wanting to curl up in a ball and cry because i know i did this to myself.  im feeling anxious because we all know it is so hard to lose weight and keep it off its like what if i cant do it  .i feel blessed that i found out early and not when i had a heart attack or stroke or something but i feel like im up against unsermountable odds  . so if any one out there has any advice on how to lower the cholesterol  or are just going through it yourself please anything would help.

well buddies i finally got my new elliptical and im very excited and i got our old house all set back up so now im ready to start back on the plan . for the past  2 weeks ive have been eating mass amounts of junk food and take out now usually i love it and enjoy my off time but i hated it after the first couple of days i started to feel bad and be more sluggish and all i could think about was how fat i am i was miserable now i started back yesterday and i am feeling totally different but at the first sight of the brownies my husband made i just dove right in i was so dissapointed with myself so i started over today determined not to give in and i did but i put the brownies in my calorie count  and have decided to forgoe any other snacks for today so heres hoping i have more will power.  if you have any other suggestion s on how to get past the junk food urges please let me know.

so todays workout was going well i had done my total gym and was happily doing my eliptical when 8 mins into it it broke so after my husbands unsuccefull yet fully appreciated attempt at fixing it i did a cardio video. sounds great but it didnt feel like i was getting a good workout does any one have any suggestions on what to do to get a good cardio workout until mine is fixed or replaced.i need help i have a goal to reach!!!!!!

so today was so hard to get motivated i just didnt want to do it today but i did anyway. so im happy about that. im a little i dont know kinda let down . as you know i lost six pounds last week and i asked how could this be and some people said probably just water weight and its like well that was kinda bitchy even if its true i was just like well if its just water then why am i doing this i told my husband this and he said well even if it was just water thats six pounds off the scale and you can only build on that to reach your goal if you keep it up. so i didnt devour the cake he made last night lol has anyone felt like this be it through the blogg or from somethin someone else said..???

okay so today i weighed now i weighed 247 on monday and today i weighed 241lbs how is this possible . now dont get me wrong i am elated thats six pounds gone but i thought the norm is only 1-2 lbs a week so does any body know anything about this ??? i checked the scale several times and also had my husband look at it ..

i just realized something  exercise and diet are not meant to consume your whole days. you have to find a happy balance whats right for you and what you can stick with  healthy eating and exercise are meant to help keep off cardiovascular problems  and other such health problems so you can be around for your friends and family not to make your life miserable just something to chew on buddies have a great day!!!

my workout consist of using the total gym  for a total body workout and 30 mins on the eliptical mon wed and fri

tues and thurs i workout on the eliptical for 20 mins  and i have pretty much stuck to it but today it was so hard to get motivated i just wanted to sleep in and relax all day but i got up and did it anyway .yayme the kids were killing me its like they know that if mommy doesnt do this now she wont do it so lets see how many times we can interrupt her they were driving me crazy and after i got done they were reay for there naps …. so any way is anyone else having similar problems with motivation????

he guys im still on track and working out and everything but im feeling a little overwhelmed because i just keep thinking  im going to have to do this for the rest of my life and i dont know if i can and im just like why be miserable why not just eat and sit around  im just having a hard day.buddies i need support!!!!!!!!!!